pity party

After my difficult week, which ended in a christmas 'party' last night, I am decided that this weekend I WILL be half empty and have a pity party just for me. Anyone want to join in?

My business christmas party was cancelled past night due to the weather but a few of us friends in the village decided to go to the pub for a drink anyway.

As the evening went on, it became very clear to me that although we are all friends, they all get together without me, and with their husbands without T and I.

It has really brought home to me that whilst T is absolutely my best friend, I don't have that kind of female friendship and I miss it. NEED it. Although T knows everything about me and I tell him everything, sometimes I want a female perspective on stuff. And I don't have that.

I went home last night sad, and my friends all knew I was sad, but NO ONE has contacted me to see if I am OK. Was I wrong to hope that they might?

I guess it's just come at the end of a bad week.

I am praying that to God that HE will be enough for me.

Anyone have a different perspective or words of encouragement?

Christmas

you know, I really want to look on the bright side and be a cup half full (not half empty) kinda gal. But I am struggling this week.

One of my husbands good friends (from university days) died very suddenly last weekend which completely shocked us both and upset us (T. in particular, obviously) he was in our wedding 12 years ago. Due to the nature of his death, there has to be a post mortem and an inquest. Could I ask you to pray for his family? and for T has he travel to Cornwall next week for a difficult funeral 2 days before christmas which will include overnight stays due to the huge distance - all in Christmas week! Phew!

Then I made a monumental mistake at work yesterday which I feel just awful about. I have tried to make apologies (which have been rejected) and make amends (again, rejected) but it has turned into a big thing at work and to be honest, I am dreading going in tomorrow. If anyone feels like praying for that too, I would appreciate it - that I would act in a Christ-like manner and it would all 'be ok' whatever that is.

Meanwhile, in other news....snow is forecast for Friday so it is now possible that the kids school may be closed on the last day of term!!!

PS, yeah I don;t know why I called it Christmas either - none of what I said is about Christmas!

Wisemen

According to my children, the wisemen brought Jesus Gold, common sense and fur....


Other recent snippets (just so it looks like I am making a bit of effort with the blog....)

Middle child made me a present last weekend (a clock) with some writing on which I couldn't read. It said, "Mum you are........ " When I asked him what it said, he said "Mum you are embarassing me".

I am having great fun with them at the moment although there are lots of bugs and germs going round. We're on the countdown to Christmas and I can't wait!

xx

LaplandUK

Today we had an amazing opportunity for the whole family to go to Lapland UK for FREE (tickets are usually £80 EACH - so it would be £400 for our family to go)

We had a lovely lovely time, special family time. Fab.

Enjoy the pics (there are more on facebook)

xx

a-hargh me hearties!

tee-hee, this is my husband at T's birthday pirate party yesterday (more photos will follow but just had to share this one first!!)

4

My precious Baby T is 4 tomorrow. I cannot believe my youngest is 4. My surprise. The one who was always meant to come and complete our family.

For those of you who don't know our story, prepare to laugh. I found out I was pregnant with T when I was 23 weeks pregnant and not a day before. Long long story (which I'll tell you if you email me) but suffice to say you can put "symptoms" down to alot of reasons, and yes, I guess I was just a tiny bit dense.

Anyway, T, my babe. Our very own superhero, spiderman, Anakin Skywalker, Ben 10, Peter Pan (or whoever you choose to be on your special day). Thank you for coming into our lives, for being such a laid back baby who has changed into a not-quite-so-laid back pre-schooler who is inquisitive (you have asked me "why" more than your siblings have put together), intelligent, funny, caring, imaginative, sometimes stroppy, and very very cute. You complete our family and 'fit' perfectly.

Daddy and I can't wait to see what the next year holds for you, as this time next year you'll be at school with your brother and sister, and you can't wait!!

Happy Birthday!

All our love
xxxxxxxxxxxxx

and if anyone from our 'old' church reads this, please don't be offended - we love and want to keep your friendship - not replace those relationships, just add to them. This has been SUCH a hard decision for us, taken after much prayer, thought and discussion. It's the right thing for us to be doing now, we feel cconvicted of that, we hope that all our christian family will stand with (prayerfully) as we seek God's place for us.